Random writing thoughts on Saturday afternoon.

        And god knows I never get it right the first time.  My grammar is terrible, I can't spell worth a damn and my sentence structure is suspect.  Sometimes I wonder why the hell I would want to write and share my work.

      My head is full of stories.  Every since I was little I would make up stories in my head to keep my self amused.  When life would get too hard to bare I would bring up the story in my head and play it like a movie. It was a technique I used to keep myself myself sane.  I still do that today.
     The other reason I write is I find it hard to find characters to relate to in popular media.  I'm a fat Latina woman over 40 no one writes with me in mind.  So I characters in my head I can relate to.  I tend to fall in love with them. So I want to share them. It is also nerve wracking.  My biggest fear.  People are going to think my ideas are stupid.  That I'm dumb.  That they won't love my imaginary friends as much as I do.  The reality is some people won't. That not everyone is going to like my work.  I'm just going to have to learn to suck it up and deal.  Hopefully there will be someone who does relate to my stories and characters. That will make the risk worth it. 
    
     Now that I have a couple of finished drafts done the hard part releasing them to get read and edited.  As we speak I an email from a friend who kindly edited my story for me.  I haven't read it yet.  I'm a little scared of getting my ego bruised, but I know this is a necessary step especially if I want to get better.   The other reason I haven't read it yet I don't have time to start the rewrite yet and I need a little distance from it.
    

      Whether or not I choose to write the fantasies in my head, they will always be there. It has been challenging trying to make the stories in my head match on the page. Then there are the moments my characters go off and do there own thing on the page. One thing I do know is even if my writing goes no where, I do not regret the decision to actually make time to write.  This is only the beginning of my journey on paper. 

And your Obligatory writing meme featuring Mark Sheppard cause I'm that kind of fan girl.  (I think I write these things in order to post memes)