Random writing thoughts on Saturday afternoon.

        And god knows I never get it right the first time.  My grammar is terrible, I can't spell worth a damn and my sentence structure is suspect.  Sometimes I wonder why the hell I would want to write and share my work.

      My head is full of stories.  Every since I was little I would make up stories in my head to keep my self amused.  When life would get too hard to bare I would bring up the story in my head and play it like a movie. It was a technique I used to keep myself myself sane.  I still do that today.
     The other reason I write is I find it hard to find characters to relate to in popular media.  I'm a fat Latina woman over 40 no one writes with me in mind.  So I characters in my head I can relate to.  I tend to fall in love with them. So I want to share them. It is also nerve wracking.  My biggest fear.  People are going to think my ideas are stupid.  That I'm dumb.  That they won't love my imaginary friends as much as I do.  The reality is some people won't. That not everyone is going to like my work.  I'm just going to have to learn to suck it up and deal.  Hopefully there will be someone who does relate to my stories and characters. That will make the risk worth it. 
    
     Now that I have a couple of finished drafts done the hard part releasing them to get read and edited.  As we speak I an email from a friend who kindly edited my story for me.  I haven't read it yet.  I'm a little scared of getting my ego bruised, but I know this is a necessary step especially if I want to get better.   The other reason I haven't read it yet I don't have time to start the rewrite yet and I need a little distance from it.
    

      Whether or not I choose to write the fantasies in my head, they will always be there. It has been challenging trying to make the stories in my head match on the page. Then there are the moments my characters go off and do there own thing on the page. One thing I do know is even if my writing goes no where, I do not regret the decision to actually make time to write.  This is only the beginning of my journey on paper. 

And your Obligatory writing meme featuring Mark Sheppard cause I'm that kind of fan girl.  (I think I write these things in order to post memes)

My obsession with The King of Hell

      It's has been a while since I've written a blog post.  Between two conventions and 3 shows I had to put the writing on the back burner for a bit. I'm back.  Did you miss me?  All six you of you who read this.   So here is the progress update for the novel.  I have finished a prequel short story for the novel.  It's in the editing phase right now.  I'll have a link to it soon, if anyone is interested, when I think its fit for human eyes.  So as a palette cleanser before I start editing I wrote some fan fiction.
      No surprise here, its smutty Supernatural fan fiction featuring Crowley.  Everyone who knows me knows about my obsession with Mark Sheppard. I Belong to the House of Bob and the Mark Sheppard Fan Fiction Compendium Facebook groups. Or as I like to call them my enablers. I put down my fan fiction writing a while back to write the novel.  I wanted to focus on original work.  Thanks to these two groups I have picked up my fan fic pen again. Over at the House of Bob, we spend a lot of time posting pictures of Mark and fawning over them like teenage school girls.  There is a unnatural obsession with his tongue over in that group.

   Do you blame them?  I don't.  Excuse me I need a minute.

Okay back to the point... There is one I swear.

    Then this photo got posted. All sorts of wonderfully naughty comments of course were written, which led into a discussion about Crowley being locked in the Winchesters basement, which lead of the basis of my fan fiction. So I popped over to the Fan Fiction Compendium for support.
  

     I post this for inspiration in the group.  Everyone is awesome and tells me they can't wait to read it.  So of course now I have to write it. Which I did and it is filthy. I love my original character I paired with Crowley.  I plan to make it a series. I also discovered it is really hard writing smut when you don't have a boyfriend to help relieve tension when you are writing a really hot scene.   
      Here is the link. I still consider a work in progress.  I have the grammar police looking at  it currently. http://archiveofourown.org/works/4149837/chapters/9362109
    I'm really proud of myself that I finished it in about a week.  I'm getting better at setting out time to write thing.  I might actually get this novel written after all.
    Now back to writing about love, sex and Aliens.